I am very angry! My dad has decided that I am a failure and has given up on me. Whatever, do that, I don't care anymore. He put in his time, and I didn't turn out how he expected, so he's giving up.

I'm trying to apply to college but its like everything I do is wrong, and I keep getting yelled at! It's too stressful and I'm losing my mind! I'm not sure what I'm even supposed to be doing anymore and my family is fighting all the time.

If life is this stressful from this moment forward I do not want to live it. I was so depressed today... it's like I don't even want to be existing right now. I feel like I have no reason to be alive.

I can't stand cutesy sayings when said seriously. if said to small dogs or in a sarcastic, patronizing way, its alright. But please don't be nauseating on purpose. That goes for all people. I will let you know when you are doing it by puking on your feet. :]

I am sick. ]: Not the pig, its just a cold thing. But I'm pretty much better now, I just "bound lyg bis" because my nose is stuffed up.

I am verrah happy because my art is coming along great! I'm going to put up some drawings and paintings soon. I have two really good drawings (of feet and a window, respectively) that I'm putting in my portfolio and I just did two new watercolors. I pretty much can only paint with watercolors. Anything else and I fail.

I did this really pretty painting of a wall and a window with some flowers on it from a photo I took in Italy. I love the colors, they are very happy. I also did a semi-retarded painting of some stock photog I have, but I did it in black and white and the shades got all messed up and now it looks bad. My art teacher likes it though.... I might re-do.

But today I'm off to take some more stock photog for me to draw from. My friend Casey is really flexible and can make all sorts of weird shapes so I'm going to go have fun with that today. Yay!!!!

And it's raining! I'm so excited, I love the rain. :]